Sunday, March 01, 2009
SOmetimes u wonder, why those words came out before it entered that tiny brain of mine... words u didnt mean.. yet they came out not the right way. U said u are ok. but i m very much more bothered by it. It sent tears to my eyes on the bus trip back. not exactly the best way to end the wonderful weekend.
i start to recall, the number of times i've said sorry. the number of times i let slip a word too many. only made me feel, u're worth better. makes me wonder, will u ever regret? or just make do. not exactly a very good thought. know it prob didnt cross ur mind that way... i'm just afraid it did...
i just confirmed.. just how much i really love u... because it hurts so much when i feel that i have hurt you in some way.. small or big... and how much i want to be perfect for u... and how bad i feel when i just don't seem to meet the mark..
yet u have been so unconditional. i feel blessed...
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
What a night...
Yesterday was just like any ordinary day.. no fuss.. same same.. doing the same stuff...
Did my presentation to the PIP committee and got shot multiple times with critics and questions.. ultimately felt that no point wasting my saliva to explain because they were hearing and not listening to me... they kept going round and round saying the same things.. so whatever...
After that.. being 7:30pm.. SHuping and Mei were still around so i asked them if they wanted to eat dinner together since my mum was out eating with my aunt..
So off we went to Tekka Mall area to the Food centre...
Shuping and Mei had noodles and i decided to have roti prata and a teh ping...
Later on, shuping and i walked to bugis to take the mrt home. While i was in the train i was chatting with xiao qian on the phone gut started to feel very uncomfortable and difficult to breathe.. eventually told xiao qian that i could not talk to her anymore and i needed to put the phone down. I felt so tight in the upper tummy and chest and difficult to breathe and was in so much pain.. i thought i was suffering from pulmonary embolism..
Got out of Jurong East MRT barely and sat on the seat. luckily i had a plastic bag with me.. and i puked into the plastic bag... i was in sooo much excruciating pain i wanted to scream...
Finally a kind soul Mrs Chris Wu came by to ask me if i was ok. She lent me her lap to lie on to rest and ask someone to get the MRT staff.. who got me a wheel chair to sit on.. On the wheel chair i puked again...
felt a bit better.. but later on , the sense of nausea and pain came and go as a wave.. and i was so uncomfortable. Dear finally picked me up to go to the bukit gombak clinic near my home as it was still open. However was told that i needed to wait for 1 h. argh.. but i just could not bare with the pain. it was soo sooo painful so hard to breathe.. i could not sit.. could not lie...
Eventually dear asked them to call the ambulance who came very quickly. It was the longest ride i ever took to NUH.. was in so much pain i was on 4s.. and really wanted to cry... when i did reach the emergency department of NUH.. i was screaming in pain and sweating so much ..
Taking my ECG was so agonising. i could not keep still yet needed to to get a good ready. being afriad of needles it was mental torture.. as they tried to set the needle plug.. ahhh... and also did a blood test for me.. before pumping more medicine for my nausea and pain. i was vomiting so many times again.. there was nothing coming out...
eventually with tramadol... i settled more.. and was able to sleep a bit..
they diagnosed me with acute gastritis and suggested that if i got it again that i prob need to go for a scope...
eventually got discharged at about 1:30am at night, got my meds and went home..
dear was with me all this while and he hasnt eaten... sorry dear.. for all the trouble. mum was also there to accompany.. and thank u gor gor.. for coming and fetching mum... i feel v much blessed by all of u...
:) now resting at home
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
It's been a while since i properly blogged. Suddenly had a few minutes of time here procrastinating. And decided hmm.. why not... just for a bit...
anyways.. how's life.. classic overused yet relevant question. Life has been pretty much the same. Highs and lows.. Nothing particularly exciting. Just drowning myself in work. Sometimes i feel work is something i impose on myself. I mean, i really dont have to do them.. ot dont have some of those work. but the thought just bugs me.. and so.. my "to-do list" grows and grows...
A bit bored ... sometimes a bit sad that life is only so far about work. Hardly time to meet up with old close frens. Feel like i have neglected them big time. Haiz.
Christmas 2008 passed and now CNY 2009 approaches.. and yes.. the big 2-7 is just round the corner for jaga, angie, bernie and me... come to think of it.. it is weird that we havent celebrated together before last year.. considering the dates are so close!
Here i m typing nonsensical rubbish.. while waiting to go out to watch Chi Bi II with dear.. at vivo.. leaving home earlier anyway to go walk around to look for some cny or new clothes.. and then... grab a small bite.. before the movie starts. =)
ok. enough of nosensical rubbish... i should stop procrastinating. put on my shoes and head on out. since i am not making productive work here anyways... argh..
such a boring post eh? getting old for blogging
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Friday, January 09, 2009
we now own 5%. :) Yay!
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Thursday, December 25, 2008
But u came... very touched..
u made it better... made it still special.. thank u dear..
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What a bummer..
Most impt day.. Xmas.. still couldnt get the ideal.. Most impt day for me.. yet it was painting day... but understand la.. but still.. what a bummer.. crap..
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Saturday, November 15, 2008
Date: 12 November 2008.
Appointment time: 9:30am
Venue: HDB Reception B
Room: 196 (Or was it 195?)
Queue number: 00035
Event: Oct Half Yearly Balloting Exercise
Conclusion:
:) We got Telok Blangah Towers. The only unit left there, up for balloting.
Ready in 2013...
:)
Our New Home: Block 80C
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Sunday, September 21, 2008
The Perishers - Pills
I hope my smile can distract you
I hope my fistscan fight for two
So it never has to show
And you’ll never know
I hope my love can blind you
I hope my arms can bind you
So you’ll neverhave to see
What we’ve grown to be
One may think we’re alright
But we need pillsto sleep at night
We need liesto make it through the day
We’re not ok
One may think we’re doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We’re losing ground with every passing day
We’re not ok
But that’s one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That’s one thing
I would never say to you
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